I know I have said this time and time again about Lucinda Berry’s books, but WOW. She has a way of dragging you in and making you feel all the feels. Saving Noah is no different. This is a 5 star book that I highly recommend every one read. It gives a new prospective to a subject that is uncomfortable and difficult.
Noah is a teenager. He is like most teenagers. Popular, smart, a great swimmer. He has loving, doting parents. Until one night he admits to something that turns his families world upside down. Noah has a secret, a disease. An urge he cant control no matter how hard he has tried. Noah is attracted to children. Not just all children, young girls. After swim practice, where this town star was working with children, he molested two young girls. He confessed to his crimes. He knew it was wrong. He was sentences to time in a sexual rehabilitation center.
While he was in treatment, Noah was a model citizen. His mother, Adrianne stood by him the entire time. She came to visit during visiting hours and made sure he knew she was there for him. His father, Lucas, didn’t attend visitation. He was uncomfortable and acted like Noah was just another pervert. He worried about what would happen when Noah got out of treatment. There was Katie, Noahs younger sister, to worry about. Noahs Drs were worried about him. A model patient. Was there such a thing?
But alas, Noah was released. With his father not wanting him in the home, his mother rented an apartment and lived with Noah. While trying to navigate this new normal in their lives, and everything that had changed since the confession, Adrianne never let her love for her sone waver. Noah, however, knew he was not cured. He knew he was a monster and that despite how much he wanted to change, he never would. And despite how much he wanted to never hurt another child, he knew eventually he would. With his father treating him like a criminal, his mothers overbearing love, and his life forever changed, Noah was not, and would not, ever be the same again.
Adrianne struggled to be there for her son and her daughter. She fought with her husband, who was showing a side of himself she was struggling with. While his father has secrets of his own, Noah does not blame him for his mistreatment of him. Adrianne does. She grows as a person over the challenges she has faced.
This book really made me feel all the emotions. From anger, disgust, understanding, and what a mother really will go through for her child, despite all that child is and does. I felt for Noah as well. Even though he is a pedophile, you truly get the sense that he does not like the person he is. He hates that he has these urges and he wants nothing more than to be rid of them. To save children from being hurt and be a normal teenager, a normal man. This will truly leave you after you have finished this book and find yourself questioning your own beliefs you once thought were true.
Thank you to the author, Dr. Lucinda Berry, for once again dragging me deep into the psyche world, and making question my beliefs, in a such a good way!
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